For a data collection exercise at work, never mind what it was about, they asked me to walk slowly on a grid of many squares, each a meter per side, lingering in them as I strolled along. After a few minutes, my thoughts began to wander; it occurred to me this could be like the path of an ancient pilgrim who attains spiritual contemplation while he meanders a serpentine path defined by concentric zigzags that lead both inward and outward where they are laid on the stone floor of a cathedral’s nave, or bordered by winding topiary in the garden of a monastery. Although I cannot say why, my first wife entered consciousness, how she left suddenly without explanation, a mystery I have never been able to solve, only grasping the vague notion that we must have come to unreconcilable disagreement. At random intervals, years later, she still sends me a very occasional letter to let me know I have been on her mind. Her latest note is a fond recollection of a game I have enjoyed since childhood: a shifting labyrinth, walls in flux, where players race with each other to find treasure. For her, I assume, this memory was a point of shared connection. But what I recall, with amazement, from playing together is a board overturned, cards on the floor, and her storming away from the table when she thought the game was not going well.
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