Comet Hyakutake by E. Kolmhofer, H. Raab; Johannes-Kepler-Observatory,
Linz, Austria (http://www.sternwarte.at) – Own work, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=6756468
  • Hibiscus Tea

    Preparing loose-leaf tea is a ritual.
    Hot water poured into a glass pot,
    you can watch the floral infusion bloom.
    
    A red cloud spreads throughout the reservoir.
    Dried petals sublimate. Pink-tinged vapor
    climbs up the transparent walls like a vine. 
    
    Tendrils of steam escape the spout. It steeps. 
    Minutes pass as if events in time-lapse:
    rosy blossoms unfold before your eyes. 
    
    When long enough has gone by, you serve it. 
    Shallow, white cups are good for hibiscus;
    pale clay shows off the crimson liquid. 
    
    Dim the lights, sit on a couch, sip gently. 
    Relaxation will grow inside your body 
    like a shrub that is cared for very well. 
    
    
    
    
    
  • Hospice Notebook

    Dad's Hospice Notebook
    
    His oxygen mask kept him from speaking, 
    so they gave him a pen and a small notebook 
    placed beside his bed. He scribbled words 
    in order to communicate with us:
    
    my mom, fifty-one, the same age as him; 
    my sister, who was barely a teenager;
    and me, a college senior, jealous
    of what my friends were doing back at school. 
    
    The breathing machine dried out his throat, 
    which was raw from tumors and radiation.  
    He could not eat or drink, but asked us
    anyway for ice water to soothe him. 
    
    Congestion in his lungs built up until 
    he needed to remove his mask and cough 
    into a pan someone held out for him: 
    phlegm in dark-red globs, thick as pasta sauce.
    
    Near the end, I stayed over in his room. 
    I recall being frightened he would die 
    while I slept, and I did not get much rest.
    Eventually, though, I drifted off –
    
    when I came to, he had fallen asleep. 
    I looked inside his notebook and saw 
    the word “water” scrawled on a fresh page. 
    It broke my heart. 
    
    Maybe he could not have swallowed any,
    but I felt awful I was not awake 
    to comfort him. For a long time after 
    he died, I carried this notebook with me, 
    
                                          not ready to let go.
    
    
    
    
    
  • Retired Acrobat

    Not so long ago, she was in prime shape,
    thrilling audiences each weekend 
    with her solo act under the big top.
    Suspended from a perilous vantage
    high above the stage, she contorted
    her limber body around the trapeze
    and her muscles rippled from exertion.
    
    She spun wildly, flinging her braided hair
    like a bullwhip, and at the very end
    would perform a quadruple full twist
    to dismount, the crowd beginning to cheer
    before her feet had even touched the mat.
    One evening, her hand lingered on the bar
    a bit too long; she over-rotated
    
    only a few degrees, and when she landed
    off her mark, her pinky toe snapped in half.
    She smiled through the shock, taking in 
    a well-deserved reward of thunderous 
    applause, then exited behind the curtain 
    after the spotlight went black, the same 
    as every show since she could recall. 
    
    What seemed a minor injury took months 
    to heal. But worse, the memory 
    of that imperfect finish frayed her nerves:
    she lost confidence in stunts she used to do 
    with eyes closed, training was a painful chore,
    she missed rehearsals. Her coach grew impatient.
    The circus declined to renew her contract.
    
    Now in her late twenties, she tumbles through 
    various jobs while she goes back to school. 
    Some day she wants to be a talent scout 
    for her home country’s gymnastics team.
    In the meantime, she tutors algebra,
    works a shift at an upscale restaurant,
    and freelances as a babysitter.
    
    She maintains her physique as best she can
    through a daily routine of exercise 
    that starts, without fail, the hour before dawn.
    Once in a while, she suddenly wakes up
    from a recurring dream where she can still hear
    the sound it made when that tiny bone
    at the tip of her foot broke with a pop.
    
    
    
    
    
  • Summer Retreat

    At Mount Madonna, she meditated
    twice a day or more for an hour each time. 
    She practiced yoga morning, noon, and night –
    learned how to teach others the positions. 
    
    Her diet there was vegetarian:
    warm kitchari from an earthenware bowl,
    curried leafy greens with golden raisins. 
    Alcohol and caffeine were forbidden. 
    
    After a month of this, she felt divine.
    Then in autumn, a return to her job;
    high school English is more than full-time work,
    a mom as well with family to support. 
    Now she yearns for that transcendence she attained,
               and wonders when she’ll find it again. 
    
    
    
  • Dusk in San Jose, CA

    Dusk from a Balcony in San Jose
    (August, 2015)
    
    A man on his terrace ponders the breeze.
    This evening’s forecast predicts cool weather.
    A gentle sweep of cirrus clouds hovers
    in the darkening, cobalt atmosphere.
    
    Sunshine has crept down the bent horizon.
    Jet planes arc along the celestial dome.
    Stars emerge, piercing through the firmament
    with steel pinpricks of oscillating light.
    
    Below where he muses, his arms folded
    atop a metal railing, steam rises 
    off a vacant hot tub sequestered in 
    a gated patio. Underwater 
    lamps make its concrete basin glow azure,
                an inviting shade for nighttime bathers. 
    
    
    
  • Like Vampires

    Vampires On a Hot Day
    
    On hot afternoons, we live like vampires.
    Each window closed, Venetian blinds pulled shut
    against the sun and its penchant for heat.
    Our house this way entombed, preserving cool.
    
    Last night’s cross-ventilation of crisp air 
    settles around us, redolent of stars’ 
    distant brilliance in a clear sky, 
    welcome insulation from solar radiance. 
    
    Movements are conserved, appetite suppressed. 
    We make indoors a crepuscular zone –
    a contrived dusk that is safe from the day. 
    Hours later, when twilight arrives in truth,
    unshuttered, we open ourselves to darkness,
                and begin our business in earnest. 
    
    
    
  • Ghost Story

    Grandma Tells Me a Ghost Story
    
    “Seven years after he died, I saw your dad
    standing in the doorway of my bedroom.
    He had on a shirt you all gave him:
    navy blue with a thin, burgundy stripe. 
    
    His beard was trimmed short
    and he wasn’t wearing his glasses –
    you don’t need them in heaven.
    He smiled and took one step into the room.
    
    I couldn’t speak, although I wanted to.
    Grandpa’s back was turned, so he didn’t see him.
    I wasn’t dreaming because I hadn’t gone to sleep!
    
    It felt so nice for him to let me know
    he was thinking of me, my only son,
               and he was doing all right with The Lord.”
    
    
    
  • Nail and Sock

    How does a nail rise from the floor
    over the course of many days
    until it becomes a peril,
    the head no longer flush with wood
    able to tear holes in your socks
    when you shuffle along the hall 
    between bedrooms in stocking feet?
    
    Perhaps the plank recalls itself
    a whole tree, before it was hewn,
    among others in the forest. 
    Its fibrous grain imparts a stress, 
    as if a muscle always flexed,
    that slowly pushes the nail out
    like a splinter squeezed from a wound –
    
    the harsh contaminant removed, 
    flesh relieved to be rid of it,
    skin healing around the blemish.
    We take our structures for granted,
    believe in their static nature, 
    yet what was meant to hold in place
    is refused by that which is built
    
    and morphs into a source of dishevelment.  
    
    
    
  • Bagging Groceries

    Careful
    to put items
    which are well–protected
    and heavy, like a quart of milk,
    in first,
    
    saving
    the top for eggs
    or a box of crackers
    where they won’t get crushed under tubs 
    of dip –
     
    foodstuff
    sorted by weight
    and how vulnerable
    it is as each purchase slides off
    the belt,
    
    is scanned
    at the checkout,
    then bagged with nimble hands
    by the person standing beside
    my cart –
    
    they smile
    when they finish
    and wish me a good day,
    a sincere gesture expecting
    no thanks,
    
    their job
    done thoughtfully,
    packing up groceries
    to reduce the chance of any
    damage:
    
    a jar 
    of hot salsa 
    shields the bananas,
    tomatoes ride above a brick
    of cheddar. 
    
    
    
  • Burgess Park Haiku

    The old, molting duck
    tucks its head behind a wing
    and stands on one foot.
    
    
    That grove of redwoods
    beside the town library
    is home to a hawk.
    
    
    Plum trees 
    dapple the lawn 
    with mauve blossoms. 
    
    
    Sunlight glistens
    on swimmers’ bodies
    in the pool. 
    
    
    Every night, cars parked 
    under the jacaranda
    are covered with seeds.